I can't believe it's been 9 months since you went to be with Jesus! I woke up this morning at exactly the same time you were born, sweet girl! I climbed into bed with Elijah to cuddle with him for a few minutes and so wished you were with us. Both your brothers would've LOVED snuggling with you! Ethan tries to get Elijah to snuggle with him, but Elijah usually won't have anything to do with it.
We so miss you! Some days are easier than others. Some days I can imagine how happy your life is in Heaven and other days, I just want to hold you again so badly that I feel like my heart is breaking with the pain. It's so hard trying to imagine what you would look like and be like right now. Would you be crawling and into everything? Or would you be a late crawler like your brothers, still content being in one place? I wonder so many things about you!
And oh, I miss all the things I didn't get to do with you! I miss smiling down at you while you nurse. I miss dressing you in cute little girl clothes, with little bows in your hair. I miss giving you baths. You and Elijah would've had so much fun in the tub together! I miss carrying you in the sling, having you close enough to kiss and love on whenever I wanted to. I miss seeing you greet your daddy when he comes home from work, with a smile on your face meant only for him! I miss singing you "your song." I miss seeing your brothers playing with you and making you laugh! I miss having you reach for me to pick you up.
Oh, precious one! Knowing how happy you are helps mama deal with her sadness, but I know the ache will never completely go away - until Heaven! I can't wait, Felicity! Not a day goes by that I don't think of you and miss you!
Love you forever,
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