Here's a loose replay of a conversation I've had with 5 people so far (the receptionist at the doctor's office, the OB in-take nurse, the nurse at my doctor appt., my doctor, and the receptionist at the diagnostic clinic):
Me: "Hi, I need to make an appointment because I'm pregnant."
Them: "Congratulations! When was the first day of your last period?"
Me: "I'm not sure of the exact date, but it was sometime in November of 2005."
Them: Silence......... "Uh, okay."
Me: "I've been pregnant or nursing since them and never got my period back before getting pregnant again."
Them: more silence...."Okay, well when would you like to come in?"
End of conversation.
Yes, I haven't had a period in over 3 years! Paul and I have been married not quite 3.5 years and in that time I've only had my period 3x. I tease him that he should be appreciative of all the PMS he hasn't had to endure, but then again he's put up with a lot of pregnancy "issues."
Physically, I'm feeling great so far. This is unusual for me. These Schwendinger babies usually have me begging for mercy practically the moment I find out they are on the way. This time around, I've been able to exercise almost everyday, which may be one of the reasons I'm doing so well. Whatever the reason, I'm thankful. It's my goal during this pregnancy to be thankful no matter the circumstances.
Emotionally, I'm doing kind of how I expected. I still get overwhelmed at moments with the sadness of losing Felicity. This baby is not a replacement for her, just like this baby does not replace any of my living children. Each are created separate and unique and are loved individually. So, don't think the grief posts are over. I will always miss my daughter and writing about those feelings helps me sort through them.
Thank you for your prayers!!! Please continue to pray. After losing Felicity, each little twinge in my body makes me worry about this baby. So far, I'm doing well with giving these worries to God each day. I go for my dating ultrasound on Feb. 19th. Paul's hoping it's twins!