Wednesday, February 11, 2009

An Interesting Conversation

Here's a loose replay of a conversation I've had with 5 people so far (the receptionist at the doctor's office, the OB in-take nurse, the nurse at my doctor appt., my doctor, and the receptionist at the diagnostic clinic):

Me: "Hi, I need to make an appointment because I'm pregnant."

Them: "Congratulations! When was the first day of your last period?"

Me: "I'm not sure of the exact date, but it was sometime in November of 2005."

Them: Silence......... "Uh, okay."

Me: "I've been pregnant or nursing since them and never got my period back before getting pregnant again."

Them: more silence...."Okay, well when would you like to come in?"

End of conversation.

Yes, I haven't had a period in over 3 years! Paul and I have been married not quite 3.5 years and in that time I've only had my period 3x. I tease him that he should be appreciative of all the PMS he hasn't had to endure, but then again he's put up with a lot of pregnancy "issues."

Physically, I'm feeling great so far. This is unusual for me. These Schwendinger babies usually have me begging for mercy practically the moment I find out they are on the way. This time around, I've been able to exercise almost everyday, which may be one of the reasons I'm doing so well. Whatever the reason, I'm thankful. It's my goal during this pregnancy to be thankful no matter the circumstances.

Emotionally, I'm doing kind of how I expected. I still get overwhelmed at moments with the sadness of losing Felicity. This baby is not a replacement for her, just like this baby does not replace any of my living children. Each are created separate and unique and are loved individually. So, don't think the grief posts are over. I will always miss my daughter and writing about those feelings helps me sort through them.

Thank you for your prayers!!! Please continue to pray. After losing Felicity, each little twinge in my body makes me worry about this baby. So far, I'm doing well with giving these worries to God each day. I go for my dating ultrasound on Feb. 19th. Paul's hoping it's twins!


Molly Koop said...

I know of four women who conceived twins after a stillbirth/early infant death and one after many consecutive miscarriages! It has entered my mind many times since losing Henry that perhaps the Lord would bless me doubly next time we're expecting. Wouldn't that be wonderful? I'm glad you're feeling well. My prayers for you continue!

Molly Koop said...

By the way, I've pretty much been in that same situation pregnant/nursing/or both since my six and a half year-old was born! I started at my new clinic with my fifth pregnancy and they weren't phased by my situation at all because many, many of their patients are in that same situation! (It's a Christian, pro-life clinic whose doctors will not prescribe birth control in ANY situation.) If you're interested in learning more, it's called Aalfa Family Clinic in White Bear Lake. A bit of a jaunt for you, but I know many people who travel that distance for these doctors. I thought I'd pass it along.

Sara said...

I love the new look on your blog. I am so glad to hear that you are feeling well, that is a bonus:)

Amy said...

Congrats on the pregnancy! Very exciting!
I'm expecting too! (If anyone out there reads my blog then shhhhhh, it's a secret. Rachel's cool enough to hear my secrets, and if you're friends with Rachel then I guess you're cool enough by default)
I really know what you mean about freaking out with every little twinge and cramp. I'm also just trying to sit back, relax, and enjoy the whole thing.
Can't wait to hear when you're due!!!
You're in my prayers all the time!

Jennifer Ross said...

I have been wondering how you have been feeling. I pray for you many times throughout the day. Maybe I will put in some prayers for twins! :)