40.2

Still pregnant! I'm 40 weeks and 2 days, believe it or not. Yesterday the midwife came over and we began the natural process of inducing labor. I was desparate to have a baby, but my baby is quite happy where he/she is at. Labor did start and was getting intense, but puttered out when I got into the birthing tub early, early this a.m.. I was hoping that getting into the tub would increase the intensity of the contractions as it did in my last birth. But alas, it was not to be. Thankfully, we all seem to be managing okay with naps and what little sleep we got.

I'm now convinced that God is working on patience in me. I was so anxious to have a baby and be done with pregnancy and yet I'm still pregnant. I need to trust God more and rely on his timing for the arrival of this baby. I won't say I'm not hoping it'll happen soon, but I'm more relaxed about it. Paul plans on returning to work tomorrow, but my mom is here and plans on staying until baby comes. It's a relief to have an additional set of hands. While I am resigned to waiting, I still am not capable of accomplishing a whole lot.